Hunger   2 comments

People brought babies to Jesus, hoping he might touch them. When the disciples saw it, they shooed them off. Jesus called them back. “Let these children alone. Don’t get between them and me. These children are the kingdom’s pride and joy. Mark this: Unless you accept God’s kingdom in the simplicity of a child, you’ll never get in.” Luke 18:15-17 The Message

i wish i was a kid again. i wish i had the passion for Christ that i had as a 12 year old. i remember being that kid at camp knowing that God had called him to change the world…

here is that same person 10 years later. having embraced at times and ran at others i sit 9 time zones away from the ones that i love. life has slowly taken over and sometimes i feel like i can’t run to Him like i could at 12. the minute i start to walk that way my voice is called elsewhere and i quit going that way and turn toward where i’m “needed” and other times i’m distracted by this world that can be so attractive.

oh to be 12 again.

i want to do what i was called to do. i want to minister like He wants me to. i want to change the world for Him. i know it’s still in me, because He put it there, and He still fosters it. i know that He still loves me and that others close to me want the same, for what He put there to be realized. but i still worry. i worry about things that i shouldn’t. money, health, happiness, stability, all the things a father, son, brother, husband hope for, when we should have our eyes solely on HIM.

“If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.” Matthew 6:30-33 The Message

so here i sit at 22, wishing i was 12 again. wishing i could recapture that hunger, that initiative.

BUT THANK GOD there is hope. THANK GOD that HE alone can reinvigorate that fire and that it can be strong and not fade. and not only that He can but that He desires to that He wants nothing more than to see His children run after Him to run and not fade to be all that He called them to be.


Posted July 4, 2010 by mattiev9287 in about me, Bible study

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  1. Dear Matt,
    I know how you feel. The passion of youth is a strong one and although the emotions may mellow with time and God may take us down different paths than we imagined, He still is leading us, using us along the way. God’s will isn’t a destination; it’s a journey and a process. Let us be faithful day by day, letting Him guide our steps…and we will arrive at the destination He has for us.

  2. I love the “today” application for those Scriptures. If we see His kingdom, He will see to it that we have a share in the rewards, others benefitted and saved, kingdom expanded, reward in heaven. Workers together with Him in His big field, this world.

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