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Jeremiah 29:10-14

10-11This is God’s Word on the subject: “As soon as Babylon’s seventy years are up and not a day before, I’ll show up and take care of you as I promised and bring you back home. I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for. 12“When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I’ll listen. 13-14“When you come looking for me, you’ll find me. “Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed.” God’s Decree. “I’ll turn things around for you. I’ll bring you back from all the countries into which I drove you”—God’s Decree—”bring you home to the place from which I sent you off into exile. You can count on it. (The Message)

i’ve been beating myself up recently. but that’s getting ahead of the story.

all my life has been like any other life. it’s had it’s ups and downs. times where the world was mine and times where the world had beaten me down. no matter what i knew that God was with me, but i didn’t seem to seek him unless i was down or at camp lol. and it always seemed like i was using God when i was down, which bothered me, but not enough to do anything about it. but this year has been different. i’ve been away from my family for almost a year now (1 week away) i’ve been through basic training, AIT and half a deployment.

through basic i really started to get back to God. it was one of those down times that i knew that i needed to get closer to Him or else i wasn’t going to make it. but it was the start of a personal revival that has taken place over the past year and has sort of culminated tonight. i made good christian friends in my platoon, people that i can still look to spiritually. i also read throuh the new testament in those  9 weeks.

AIT i strayed away a bit, i still read my bible and prayed, but not like i did in basic, then i graduated and moved to fort bliss and figured out i was leaving to go overseas. i was so shocked i didn’t know what to think. i was upset that i was being taken away from my family, but glad that my unescapable deployment was going to be out of the way, knowing that i would have a little more money to pay off some things that i knew that i needed to. but life threw me some curveballs that i had to read and deal with accordingly, but with God’s help i made it through in tact.

So i’m on the top of the world, at one of those times that i would normally not turn to God for help, but thank God that i’m not there. i’m at a place where even though everything seems all figured out i want to search for God. if you read my post Hunger you know that i have that desire to search for Him. but the desire hasn’t been a want. i know that sounds crazy but they seem to be two different things in my life.

today though i talked to someone about all this, a friend of mine here. and tonight my desire has turned into a want. then i came accross this post from the other day and i reread jeremiah 29:10-14 and was elated with what i read. we all look at jeremiah 29:11 as the pivotal verse “I know what I’m doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” but the verses that followed popped out more tonight.

“When you come looking for me, you’ll find me. “Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I’ll make sure you won’t be disappointed.” God’s Decree. “I’ll turn things around for you. I’ll bring you back from all the countries into which I drove you”—God’s Decree—”bring you home to the place from which I sent you off into exile. You can count on it. (The Message)

what a beautiful message to the israelites, yet it still took them 70 years to finally get it. hopefully it won’t take us as long, and we’ll recognize that God has our future planned and it’s a good one. and when we are serious about finding Him we will not be disappointed. a message then and still a message now.

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Posted August 10, 2010 by mattiev9287 in about me, Bible study, jeremiah

BUSY   2 comments

“No, but I will surely buy it from you for a price, for I will not offer burnt offerings to the LORD my God which cost me nothing” 2 Samuel 24:24 (NASB)

for the previous discussion on this verse go back a few blogs to “let’s continue our discussion” but i wanted to share an experience that i’ve had recently that reaffirms what this verse says.

recently it’s been easier for me to do my Bible study and such because i’ve had a little free time and i most definitely had the dedication to make sure that it got done. but this week has been crazy, thus the half post on tuesday. i was casually talking to God about the inability to really get into the Bible recently and He made sure to let me know about this verse.

so what does it mean if i’m “too busy” to get into the word. i honestly think that sometimes not reading the Bible everyday “religiously” is ok. if it’s not a labor of love, i don’t think that you’ll get much out of it. but when the labor of love is done as a sacrifice to other activities i have to think that He is more pleased. then the sacrifice costs you something and He knows it.

so what have you been sacrificing to continually read your bible? have you been doing so with regularity? have you been making sacrifices to make sure that God gets what He deserves from you?

next time you feel “too busy” to do what God has asked you to do remember to make the sacrifice that costs you something, and know that God will see it and it will please him.

Posted July 15, 2010 by mattiev9287 in 2 samuel, about me, Bible study

Hunger   2 comments

People brought babies to Jesus, hoping he might touch them. When the disciples saw it, they shooed them off. Jesus called them back. “Let these children alone. Don’t get between them and me. These children are the kingdom’s pride and joy. Mark this: Unless you accept God’s kingdom in the simplicity of a child, you’ll never get in.” Luke 18:15-17 The Message

i wish i was a kid again. i wish i had the passion for Christ that i had as a 12 year old. i remember being that kid at camp knowing that God had called him to change the world…

here is that same person 10 years later. having embraced at times and ran at others i sit 9 time zones away from the ones that i love. life has slowly taken over and sometimes i feel like i can’t run to Him like i could at 12. the minute i start to walk that way my voice is called elsewhere and i quit going that way and turn toward where i’m “needed” and other times i’m distracted by this world that can be so attractive.

oh to be 12 again.

i want to do what i was called to do. i want to minister like He wants me to. i want to change the world for Him. i know it’s still in me, because He put it there, and He still fosters it. i know that He still loves me and that others close to me want the same, for what He put there to be realized. but i still worry. i worry about things that i shouldn’t. money, health, happiness, stability, all the things a father, son, brother, husband hope for, when we should have our eyes solely on HIM.

“If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.” Matthew 6:30-33 The Message

so here i sit at 22, wishing i was 12 again. wishing i could recapture that hunger, that initiative.

BUT THANK GOD there is hope. THANK GOD that HE alone can reinvigorate that fire and that it can be strong and not fade. and not only that He can but that He desires to that He wants nothing more than to see His children run after Him to run and not fade to be all that He called them to be.

Posted July 4, 2010 by mattiev9287 in about me, Bible study

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